Me, the update

  1. I am in love with grad school homework.  My first assignment was to get involved in a case study simulation game, interviewing stakeholders and diagnosing an organizational issue.  It may sound strange to you, but for a nerd like me this is a gooood time.
  2. New job is going well!  I learn about 100 new things every hour about the grocery business and I think I have some valuable suggestions for the training program I’ll be running.  Yay!
  3. I saw Beauty and the Beast in 3D at the movies last night.  It was a magical movie event when I was 12 and is still a fantastic movie 20 years later.
  4. I got a facial and a hair cut yesterday.  It’s nice to have those small indulgences.  I also bought a new pair of shoes, although not the fancy work shoes I’ve had in the past.  Since new job is so much on the floor, running a grocery store, I bought some black tennis shoes for work.  I kind of love that I wear khakis and tennis shoes to work.
  5. I’m a bad money manager.  Nothing like a conversation with the ex-husband who was a fantastic money manager to remind me of that fact.  Must pay more attention to finances.
  6. I’m supposed to be writing a ten page paper *right now*.
  7. I signed up for another 5K on February 12.
  8. I’m a freak for Amazon.com.  I love my Kindle Fire, I love Amazon Prime and I love free two day shipping.
  9. My hair stylist has some kind of super powers to make my hair curlier than I ever know it can be.  She only trimmed it, but with how curly it is right now, it looks like I got 3 inches cut off.
  10. Oliver, the cat, is still a total pain in my neck at the exact same time he’s the most adorable cat ever.  It’s tricky to be both of those, yet he pulls it off.

And that’s ten.

Back to my paper.

Little luxuries

You know how I like to blog immediately after popping a sleeping pill, right?  Here goes…

I can’t stop smiling yet about the news of getting this job.  I was moving into the 4th month of being without a job and it was really starting to stress me out.  I was questioning every decision – is now really the time to go to grad school, what have I really done with my time off, so many things swirling around in my head.  On this particular morning I found myself wide awake at 3:10am.  Most of the time I have my “Secret” attitude that it’s all going to work out.  Somehow I’ve had enough to pay bills, make ends meet, and occasionally buy a $1 coffee from downstairs.  At 4am though, things are real and scary.  At 4am, at the insistence of a good friend, I had to say out loud what was freaking me out and make a plan.  Most of the plan just included going back to sleep.  12 hours later I got really great news.

And while unemployment will teach you a thing or two about what you can and cannot live without – here are some things I’d like to look forward to in the new year…

A pedicure.  One of the first things to go was the once a month pedicure and at a time when I picked up running as a hobby – they look rough.

A trim.  My hair is growing out, which is good, but it’s growing out a little funky in this one spot on the side and I really need it trimmed up.  Not enough to pay my girl, and not enough to settle for Great Clips.  It’s long enough for a ponytail – that was my low budget solution.

A headboard.  I know that sounds silly, and sure, it’s not a necessity, but I really want a headboard and footboard for my bed.  I’m 32 and I think it’s time for a more grown up look.  I don’t want an entire bedroom set – just a headboard.  And I’m not above resale shops or Craigslist for this – I’ve just put it off altogether.

New running shoes!  My New Balance ones are almost 3 years old, and while I’ve not been much of a runner, they are the shoes I’ve been walking around in for 3 years.  I bought a pair of Saucony running shoes about a year ago, but got them on a super clearance at a department store and settled with them being a half size too small.  Paying for that now.  I want real running shoes from a real running shoe store.  I want someone to watch me run and guide me to the right pair.

A new case for the iphone.  I’ve just burned through my 2nd one.  Not bad for 4 years.  I happen to know my sister is getting me this super awesome day planner from Erin Condren for Christmas.  (I know this because she asked what I wanted and I told her.)  They make matching iphone cases!!  How cute and organized and put together will I be?!  I’m not sure if I know exactly what design Em is getting me (I gave her a couple of options).  Once I know I’ll order the new case.  And then I will be adorable and unstoppable!

There you have it.  Not too out of line, right?

Good night, friends.  Dream of your own little luxuries.

The Cut Man Cometh

I thought of several corny jokes to start todays post with…The Big Bang Theory, To Bang or not to Bang, etc… I decided to avoid them all, even though this topic might be humorous to some. It is in fact about – whether or not I should cut bangs into my hair.

I have a lot of time to myself these days. My husband travels every week and that leaves me at home with the cat and the knitting. I’m 80 years old before my time, but that’s a blog for another day. I’m going to try and explain how this whole bang thing came around without sounding crazy, but as they say in Clue, too late.

I bought this shirt the other week. I mentioned it in my things that make me happy post. Well, I got home from work the night I wore it and just couldn’t take it off. It’s my dream white shirt, it was so hot. I finally go upstairs to change into my standard evening sweatshirt and I pass a mirror and start admiring this shirt yet again. Then what happens is eventually I end up taking what I believe is known as a good hard look at myself.

(Note: I know there are several vanity and mirror jokes to be made here. If you know me well, you know I’m fairly obsessed with mirrors. Thank goodness my sisters don’t read this or there would be plenty of tales about how I’m slightly image obsessed.)

So, that night I ended up standing there for several minutes and staring at myself and really seeing myself. (Do you think this is a sign of too much therapy? Or just enough?) I shake that off and resume my evening of red wine, dvr’d shows and knitting a scarf. Then a couple of nights ago, this happened again. I was having a pretty good hair day, so I found myself admiring my ponytail. Then all of a sudden, it wasn’t my image or hair I was looking at, but myself. All the psycho-babble about finding yourself, I was starting to understand it. That night while all this was happening, suddenly I thought, you need bangs. The true Sarah has bangs. Which brings me out of the semi-crazy portion of this post.

I gave up the bangs at the end of my senior year of high school when Mr. Lane, who was directing our production of Our Town, told me I had to get them out of my face. That began the process and all through college I started growing them out and then I’ve had pretty much the same hair style since. Why bangs now? I have a pretty healthy relationship with my hair. If I don’t like something, hair grows back and I rarely get very upset about a bad haircut. I think my hair is my best feature, but that’s all because it’s thick and curly, neither which I have any control over. Why not try something new?

That was my journey to the question and now the decision must be made. I’m going to get my hair cut Saturday. Perhaps I’ll come out a truer version of myself. It might be nice to meet her.