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I accept this position!

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, My story continues, work

I accept this training & development position at the corporate office of a major grocery store chain.

I’d like to thank the following people…

Claire, for being there every second – from the moment I lost my job to the moment I got this one.  Claire, and even her husband sometimes, were there to listen, give advice, dry run my interviews, go for walks, meet me for lunch, promote my self esteem, and mostly, validate every feeling I’ve had for the last 4 months.  I would not have been able to do this without her.

My cousin Anna for sending me this job opening.  There may be some family members that don’t want their relatives that close, but Anna saw the job, thought of me and supported me at every interview, giving me background information on the company that proved very useful in conversations with various employees.

My family for calling me to check in, even when I didn’t always call back because I didn’t have much to say.  Especially in the wake of the news of Brad’s death, it’s important to have the people who will keep calling you.

To Zumba instructors Jen and Erin who always made me feel strong and sexy for an hour, when I really felt sad and gross.

My friend Brian for bringing me on to work at his company without a second thought and insisting I was the one doing him the favor.  And to Janice, who was an acquaintance who vouched for me and introduced me to the position at the kitchen store/cooking classes.

To Alex who let me ramble on about nothing when I called.  And Angela who insisted it was never an inconvenience to meet me for dinner, workouts or pedicures.  And Colin who texted me before going for walks to make sure I was getting out of the house.

To Meg who lived with me through the pain of being unemployed – literally.  She was the greatest roommate a girl could have had during that time.

To everyone who comments on this blog while I went through the ups and downs of all the emotions this time brought.  I’ve been through periods of unemployment before.  I was married and had a built in support system – financial, emotional, insurance-al – during those times.   There’s a lot to be said for going through this alone, and I never felt so alone when I wrote it all out here.

And always, I’d like to thank Netflix for keeping me occupied with Felicity, The Tudors and lots of movies.

I start my new position on January 3rd.  My Christmas wish came early.  I can enjoy this month and all the holiday loveliness it brings while knowing I don’t have to stress about finding a position.

I’ve been humbled by the last few months.  Knowing I’m expendable at my last job and coming to grips with life decisions I make, everything from how I spend money to whom I trust, will forever impact me.  I’m humble and appreciative and grateful.

Happy December 1.  May it be the beginning of the most magical holiday season – whatever you believe and wherever you are.

Sarah

 

Did I tell you about the time…

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, running, work it out and tagged with ,

…that I ran 20 consecutive minutes??  Oh, I didn’t?  Allow me.

I’ve been hesitant to post a lot about my running progress and goals here.  You know I have some issues ‘fessing up to things I may not finish.  I have started the Couch to 5K program no less than 5 times.  I always get scared at the end of Week 5.  That’s when you go from running two 8 minute stretches in a half an hour to one 20 minute stretch.  That has freaked me out every time.

With the Disney Princess 1/2 marathon as my goal, with the knowledge that I can probably run 20 straight minutes, and with the moral support from two of my Zumba acquaintances and an ex-husband (he’s become an odd running supporter.  I think it stems from watching the marathons together.  Or him knowing what kind of support I need from the old married days.  Whatever it is, he’s done a nice job of saying, “Of course you can do this and I’ll be on the treadmill next to you if you need me.”  Which I appreciate, but have never taken him up on.  If I do this, I have to conquer the mental game and achieve it for myself with only myself.  Anyway…) I totally ran 20 minutes this past Saturday.  Plus 10 seconds.  Just to say I really nailed it.  I gave myself the following pep talk, “Sarah – I would say good luck, but you don’t need luck.  You just need to keep moving.”  Genius, right?  But it worked.  Just keep moving.

People say running gets addicting.  That I’ll be hooked.  That it’s a way to clear my head, be alone with my thoughts, use it as time to day dream, etc.

That’s starting to happen.  I like it.  I’m actually in the middle of two Couch programs.  I am now on Week 6 of C25K, which I do on a treadmill at the Y so I can get pacing down.  I decided to download the C210K program and start working with that one outdoors.  I went back to Week 1 and am doing shorter, easier intervals without the distractions and timers and tvs and people all around.  I think it’s a good system.

I think I can get 13 miles down by the time I turn 33.  What do you think?  I have until September 30.  13 by 33.  I’m only adding about a mile a month, as I’ve got two miles down right now.  I think this might be the most well thought out plan I’ve had in a really long time.

Who knew wanting a running skirt would be such motivation?  (I’m totally scoping them out on Athleta.com and Nike.com.  This one has the cutest pleats!!  But this one is such a great color!)

Also, I’ve checked with my friend from grade school who makes super adorable tutu dresses and costumes for kids to see if she could whip something up for me when I run this bad boy of a half marathon.  She’s in.

Something like this - only shorter??

I love that it has those simple bustle designs on the side.  My biggest challenge will be deciding what princess to represent while running.  Belle is my favorite, but yellow is not my color.  Aurora (Sleeping Beauty) is my 2nd favorite and I look okay in pink.  Since I plan to wear a matching running tank/shirt with running capris/skirt with this over it, I need it to be something I look good in.  Because when you look good, you feel good.  I look good in purple, but that would be Ariel and I’d need a green mermaid tail-ish skirt.  Ice Blue/Cinderella may be my best bet.  Plus, I just LOVE those side bustles!

Okay – enough talking about my remarkable 20 minutes of consecutive running.  For today.  I think I’m going to stretch my new runner’s legs at a 5K in a few weeks.  Stay tuned…

 

 

 

Simple things

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, Happy, My story continues, Sarah, work it out and tagged with , , ,

If you’ve known me for even a minute, you may know that I go back and forth on wanting to be a runner.  It’s something I want to say about myself.  That I run.  It’s how I want to see a new city, to go for an early morning job.  I want one of those widgets on the side of my blog that tracks how many miles a week I run.  And after watching the marathon, I want to run for the accessories, like running skirts.

Here’s what my ultimate running goal is: The Disney Princess 1/2 marathon.  Yes.  I first heard about it just last year.  With the year this was, dedicating myself to training for it did not take priority.  But I want to do it.  I want to be a part of this experience.  I want the tiara shaped medal you get.  And just LOOK at this video…

Check out these fun outfits!!  Last night I was on the treadmill and the thought that got me through the workout was how to fashion a tiara to a headband that will keep my hair out of my face.  Hey, you have your motivation, I have mine.

I clearly won’t be ready for the 2012 race.  So, this is a 2013 goal.  Which is perfect in another way.  Disney World is adding and expanding the Fantasyland section of the Magic Kingdom and all updates should be done by then!  I see 1/2 marathon and Disney vacation in my (year away!) future.

More things making me happy right now – Newsies is coming to Broadway!  Newsies is a live action Disney musical about newsboys in 1899.  I have loved it since 8th grade.  It’s where my true love for Christian Bale began.  And it’s coming to Broadway!!  I’ve already contacted my East Coast friends – I’ll meet them there in April!

"Dis is for da Newsies!"

 

I love that butternut squash is in season.  I love that it’s so chilly at night and my cat Quinn is extra cuddly.  I love that it’s fall movie season and I have plenty of free time right now to see all the ones I want.  I love that my friend Claire told me it’s not that I have quit things in the past, it’s that I picked the wrong thing to begin with.  I love the song that plays on the Lowe’s commercial right now (Home..is where you are..you can come home to me..).

Mostly, though, I love that I can dress up like Tinkerbell to run a race….stay tuned for progress.  I feel good about this.

 

Stream of conscious + gin & tonic = the following

Posted by sarah3030 in Cat, Crazy., growth, heavy, My story continues, Sarah and tagged with , , ,

I have to be the best at weird things.  One of the part time jobs I’m working is a kitchen assistant.  I do a lot of dishes in this job. A lot of backing up the chef.  I have a strong desire to be the best and most requested back up.  I need them to like me and think I’m competent and awesome.  This is ironic because I’m not the best at it.  My own kitchen is so messy.  I also have to be the best at typing.  Even though I know I’m not ultimately the best typist in the world, I am the best typist of the people I know.  That’s enough for me right now.

This is what I look like right now.  I’m in bed.  I’m watching Say Yes to the Dress.  I have an orange tabby cat in my lap.  This particular orange tabby cat has figured out how to take his collar off and has done it no less than 4 times today.  Right now, I have no idea where the collar is.  I know where it isn’t – on his neck.  Oh, Oliver.

I have almost no follow through.  This is constantly on my mind.  I don’t finish anything.  I’m surprised I finished that last sentence.  The list of things I think are a good idea and then disregard is long and frightening.  What is wrong with my brain?  Or my willpower?  Or my dedication?  Or my conviction?  What is it?  Do I feel I’m not worth finishing?  Am I waiting for something?  Do I have a fear of disappointing myself?  Someone else?  Am I waiting for someone to finish things with me?

Along those lines, I’ve decided I have abandonment and trust issues.  From dad dying?  From boyfriends dumping me?  From husbands thinking I wasn’t worth sticking it out with?  From cats spurning the collars I gave them? Is this internal?  Isn’t it a classic syndrome – keep people at arms length so they can’t hurt you?  Didn’t Stephanie Tanner do that in an episode of Full House in 1989?

What is wrong with me?  How do I learn to embrace a goal and to see it to fruition?  I used to be unstoppable.  Lately I feel full of hot air.  I explode and I’m left with scraps around me.  I used to be unstoppable.

When will I put myself first?  I would go to extraordinary lengths to complete a task for someone else, to throw them the best party, or be there when they needed me.  Why won’t I be there for myself?

How do you make a plan for the day and stick to it?  How do I become more accountable to myself?  This is all I can think about lately, so here it is live and on the blog.  I’ve been scared to post new things I’m interested in just to not finish them, again & publicly.

I’m off to start a new book that will eventually sit on my nightstand with a bookmark 2/3 through it.  While I read I’m going to watch a movie that I will fall asleep during.  All the while abandoning a game of Scrabble I have half finished on my iphone.

Oh dear.

 

 

Parks & Recreation – this is your influence on me

Posted by sarah3030 in Favorites, growth, Happy, My story continues and tagged with ,

Since high school there is one piece of paper I have always been able to put my hands on.  And no, that document has not been birth certificates or a social security card, as it should be.  It’s the list of things I want to do before I died.  For the record, I don’t like the term “bucket list.”  I don’t know why, but I shall not be referring to this list as that.  And list-of-things-to-do-before-I-die is really long.  Heretofore, this shall just be known on this blog as The List.  Also not to be confused the My List, which is people I’m mad at, you know, “ooooh – the lady who hit and run my car – she’s on my list!”

Let’s move on.

Last week I’m watching Parks & Recreation, which I love, and there are April and Andy, whom I also love, trying to accomplish some things on Andy’s list.  He has some crazy things – race a rhino – and some completely doable things – fly first class and make the greatest grilled cheese sandwich.  I should add that one about first class to my list also.

This has prompted me to think about The List.  I took a picture of it.  It’s actually pretty embarrassing.  It is evident I was an over the top optimist who had a few too many Barbie commercials playing in her head in high school when I started this. (“We girls, can do anything, right, Barbie!)  I don’t think I’ll be accepting an Academy Award or figure skating with Scott Hamilton anytime soon, sorry, Barbie.  Although, now that I have The Secret mentality going for me….who knows.

Once again, I digress.

The List - handwritten

This piece of looseleaf paper is now about 16 years old.  Please note that it is front and back.  I added to it after college.  Exactly 8 things are crossed off.  Those things are: Visit Italy, drive in a convertible with the top down going very fast, be a waitress (at the time it symbolized a glamorous life of struggling in a big city on my way to making it big – and hey – it’s crossed of – don’t judge), live in Chicago, jog on the beach in the morning, see the sunset over the ocean with someone I love (I’ve always been a romantic!), swing dance with someone who knows how, jetski.

The thing that came to me during Parks & Recreation the other night is that I don’t need to have a job to do all of these.  They don’t all have to be expensive.  Or require health insurance.  April and Andy just went for it.  I can go for it.

Time for an update.  The List 2.0.  Things that will transfer from the original to the update are:

  • learn to play the violin
  • stay in a mountain lodge
  • go up in a hot air balloon
  • be invited to an inaugural ball (I’m keeping it on here.  There’s a chance.)
  • live in another country
  • read all 10 books on the best seller list
  • make a wish come true for someone through the Make a Wish foundation
  • give a speech that inspires at least one person
  • be a foster parent
  • hang glide
  • go rock climbing (mostly I just want to rappel back down the mountain)
  • see the Nevada/Arizona state line
  • visit the Grand Canyon
  • memorize two Shakespeare sonnets (I may amend this one to two poems in general)
  • make s’mores in a fireplace
  • publish a book
  • spontaneous road trip
For your own enjoyment, here are a couple that will NOT make The List 2.0.
  • Re-enact the title song scene from ‘Singin’ in the Rain’ – complete with a cop (yes, I wrote “complete with a cop”)
  • Ride a horse along the beach (a little cliche for older Sarah)
  • Fly in a bi-plane (don’t know what I was thinking)
Things I’ve done in the last few years that would have been on my list had I been updating it regularly:
  • Master apple pies
  • Make the greatest chocolate chip cookie ever
  • see Cowboy Mouth perform in New Orleans
  • go to grad school (work in progress)
  • drink a $100 bottle of wine
  • see Arcadia on Broadway
And now the fun part.  Adding the new things to The List 2.0.
  • Read Crime & Punishment
  • Eat at the French Laundry
  • Get Zumba certified
  • Visit Madrid, Spain and Montreal, Canada
  • Food & Wine festival at Epcot
  • snow skiing, as long as there is a lodge at the end of the day with whiskey.  (I could perhaps also knock off s’mores in the fireplace there!)
  • successfully  make caramel
Thanks Parks & Recreation for inspiring me.  Thanks Young Sarah for being a wild day dreamer and believing that you would be invited to an inaugural ball and present (and win) an Academy Award.  (Actually, those two would have gone hand in hand, they often get last year’s winner to be the next year’s presenter – I could have had a 2 in 1…).  Thanks to me for always holding on to the original version of this list.  This little piece of looseleaf has a lot of hope in it.
Off to find some You Tube lessons so I can learn to play the violin.

Moments like these

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, Happy, My story continues, random, The job. and tagged with , , ,

Part of trying to live with The Secret in mind is to spend a moment each day being grateful for what you have.  I’m so anxious to see what’s coming next, to end this period of unemployment, to have a job again, to find the next great relationship and now, to start my new master’s program, that I don’t always stop and appreciate what’s happening right now.  So, here’s a look at what I’m grateful for right now:

  • I get to meet awesome St. Louis chefs and be part of really cool cooking parties at one of my jobs.  Tonight, my favorite tapas restaurant’s chef was there as well as the director of a local chain of organic coffee shops were the Iron Chefs at a private party.  I got to watch them cook and create and be a part of that.  That’s cool.
  • I’m grateful for hot chocolate with pumpkin marshmallows.  Seriously delicious.
  • I’m so happy about this weather!  I love the chilly mornings and perfect afternoons.
  • What’s up with my Cardinals in the World Series?!  As I type we’re up in game 3 14 to 7!  Take that Texas.  Especially satisfying as I’ve never particularly liked Texas.
  • I’m grateful for new vegan blogs that are opening up new food options to me.
  • I’m so happy Parks and Recreation is available on Netflix so I can keep watching it on repeat.  Ben and Leslie just make me so happy!
  • This new lip stain from Sephora!  I got a sample of it and I’m loving it!  I don’t usually wear anything besides chap stick.  Color on my lips makes me feel like a grown up.
There you have it.  I don’t want to get to wrapped up in the stuff that’s making me crazy right now.  I’m grateful.

Grad School

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, Happy, My story continues, work and tagged with , ,

I was accepted to an Executive Master’s program!  I started the application process months ago, have rounded up a nomination, three letters or recommendation, my college transcripts and wrote an essay on my academic intentions.  Whew.  I can’t tell you the last time I wrote an essay.  It was easily the piece that was causing me the most anxiety.  I was concerned I was going to get a phone call saying that was the worst essay they had ever read.

My new school!

Oddly, my academic interest paper was centered around how I thought my undergrad education was kind of bogus.  I was fortunate to have great experiences during that time with internships and student organizations, but my actual course work was full of professors who hadn’t been in the field in 20 years, outdated information and assignments and narrow industry insight.  I wound up at Harrah’s which prioritized teaching and learning and succession planning at that time so was able to get amazing opportunities.  My goal with this master’s is to lead organizations in that direction – where they guide and educate their teams into productive careers.

I feel good about this.  I really didn’t know what to think about my chances of being accepted were.  I am so excited to get a Master’s degree.  I know that it will make a difference in career opportunities that I am offered.  And I’m ready to learn some new things.

It was nice to have something good happen to me today.  I had forgotten for a minute what that feels like.  I’m content and making it most of the time, but to have an honest to goodness good thing happen, that felt great.

Also, in the random category, this week went well without the tv on as I fell asleep.  I still play a movie or tv show on my Netflix app on my iphone, but the light and sound are much softer.  I just like the noise.  Falling asleep has been much easier in the darker room.  I should set a new weekly challenge…I’ve been trying to set a Zumba goal.  Do a Zumba workout 6 out of the next 7 days.  Can I do it?  Sure I can.  I’m a master’s student.

Can I tell you a secret?

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, heavy, My story continues, relationships and tagged with

I read the Secret.  I even watched the movie.  Did you know there was a movie?

The Secret has been made fun of a lot.  That’s all I knew about it before reading it.  That and my therapist recommended it to me months ago, back when I still had insurance and saw a therapist.  Meg had the book and the movie was a Watch It Now feature on Netflix.  I had no excuses not to start diving in.

The Secret is the Law of Attraction.  Yes, if you can think you can, you can.  I wanted to be skeptical, but the more I read, the more this isn’t a new concept.  Disney said, “If you can dream it, you can do it.”  Henry Ford said, “Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right.”  The documentary “What the Bleep do we Know” was all about positive energy and brain power.  I don’t think this is total bogus.  I really love that Henry Ford quote.  The Secret says there is more than just thinking about what you want.

1. You have to ask the universe for what you want.  What are your goals?  What do you want?  Be clear and specific.

2. Believe it is already yours.  Calm down and live like what you asked for is on it’s way.  You’ve asked the universe – there’s no reason to believe it won’t come to you.

3. Be in a state of readiness to accept it.  Believe you are worthy of what you asked for and recognize it when it comes to you.

I thought about my college years and my first couple of years working.  Without calling it The Secret I would say I had this kind of attitude.  I approached every job, internship, student organization, relationship and promotion with absolute confidence.  If I wanted something, I got it.  I always had a clear picture, I always believed they were happening and therefore started preparing for them.  I don’t know when this power of positive thinking got away from me?  Moving to Louisiana?  The negative experience I had with the casino employees there?  And then for years I thought about how lousy things were – and they continued to be lousy.  Even the month of August this year.  On August 1st I got a parking ticket for parking within 10 feet of a mailbox.  I remember emailing Adam Science “August sucks.  I hate August.”  And you know what?  August did indeed suck.  I lost my job.  I broke up with Adam Science.  My car was hit and run.  Meg got a job offer.

What did I have to lose refocusing my energy.  Step one is to decide what I want and ask the universe.  I’ve come up with some pretty clear goals for my job and some personal growth.  I’ve made my desires clear to the world and I’m waiting for them to materialize.

This brings me to tonight.

I had no clear relationship goal.  I’m still disappointed that my relationship with Adam Science ended.  I kept hoping it would become the relationship I thought it had the potential to be.  I know I haven’t talked a lot about it here, and that’s because I’ve worried Adam Science himself would be reading this, but, well…hello, Adam if you are reading.  I’ve been so confused since I ended things on whether or not it was the right thing to do.  I have very serious nostalgia about all the fun and good times.  Last night and my own personal, bizarre struggle with the hat was all about thinking he and I should still be friends and how do I begin that transition.

Tonight I was working a private party at Kitchen Conservatory.  Essentially a group rented out our big classroom kitchen and could do whatever they wanted with it with me as their kitchen back up.  It was a group of about 25 and it was a Chopped Theme birthday party.  They had four chefs with mystery baskets and it was really a lot of fun.  It was the group of people that stood out.  They were coupled up for the most part and there was so much love in the room.  There was teasing and fun and helping and cheering and supporting and it was lovely to be around.  (Also there was wine.  Drinking at work is so cool.)  And I realized once and, I’m hoping, for all why I need to really close the book on any thoughts I may have had about reconciling a romantic relationship with Adam Science.  It didn’t feel like that.  And tonight I may have gotten a better idea about how to visualize and ask for a relationship to the universe.

I’ve been in such a funk when it comes to happy couples.  I’ve been jealous and bitter and sad and anxious whenever I see, hear, read about or think about partnerships.  It’s even been dictating my movie and tv choices.  One night last week my sister had a pretty funny exchange.  I told her I was cranky.  She told me to put in a funny movie.  I told her no, movies had couples and people with jobs in them and I was too mad to watch happy couples or employed people.  Her response was to put in the next Harry Potter, that there are no happy couples or employed people in Harry Potter.

Moral of the story: I’ll be embracing more positive thinking.  I’ll start forming an idea of what to ask the universe for in my next relationship.  I can still love and respect and miss who Adam Science is, but need to remember that I was lonely in that relationship.  And most importantly, I believe I’m worthy of what is coming to me and I’m ready to accept it when it comes my way.  Here’s to creating my future with the power of positive thinking.

I’m about to enjoy my weekend.  I have the next two days off.  It’s like the old days when two weeks days are the weekend.  I guess that made today “my Friday”.

I’m Sarah, and I’m ridiculous

Posted by sarah3030 in Crafty, Crazy., growth, heavy, relationships and tagged with ,

The thing about having two part time jobs that have random schedules is that it is impossible to get into regular day to day habits.  Which also means I feel tired all the time.  That could also be because of the cats.  The cats!  But that’s a different post.

I demonstrated some of my ridiculousness last night.  I stayed up until 1am finishing a project that I should have finished a year ago.  And why?  Why now?  It’s a gesture.  Sigh.  I can’t even explain my line of reasoning right now.  Last year I said I would knit something.  I got halfway through it and then got distracted.  Last night I finished it.  I just needed to.  And to prove a point?  To try and make things right?  To say I’m sorry?  A little of all of the above.  At 1am I had several brilliant delivery options, almost all of them involved some play on a “Say Anything” / “Love Actually” montage.  You know that scene in Love Actually where the guy shows up outside of Kiera Knightley’s apartment with the music and the signs that he keeps flipping through without saying a word?  I love that scene.  It’s so tragically romantic.  And I felt I was in the same scenario.  I needed to drop this hat off and then just leave.  I wanted a more amicable ending to this story.  At 1am I had full blown plans to carry out this “bit”.  I love a “bit”.  I love big gestures and special moments and romance.  The good news, is that at 5:20am when my alarm went off to “carry out” this “bit” I came to my senses.   I did not think that intended recipient of this gesture would appreciate my point of view.  In fact, I saw doors being slammed in my face.  (Seriously, I even awoke suddenly from a dream in which the back of my car was slammed into.  I think it was symbolism.)

Which leads me to this thought – why do I think I know what’s best for other people sometimes?  Why do I think I’M what’s best for people?  Claire used to ask me that at work from time to time.  Why am I so confident I know what’s best?

Sigh.  I got a little bit more sleep.  I got a lot of coffee from downstairs.  I’ve become a bigger coffee drinker.  I think it started when Meg was here.  I continue to grow in my coffee appreciation.  Cappuccinos are expensive.  Regular coffee is only a $1 if you bring your own mug.  I’m a girl on a budget.  I got a dollar.  I’m about two weeks away from drinking straight black coffee.  Sign of growth?

Ok.  I’m off to mail a hat.

A good day

Posted by sarah3030 in growth, Happy
I’m this happy:

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::photo of me on a beach near Monterey, CA a few years ago.  More big grins.::
I ran a lot tonight.  Not a lot compared to people who run, but a lot compared to me.  I’ve been working on building up my stamina and endurance and after a pretty kick ass pep talk from my friend the chocolatier yesterday I decided to push myself today.  I can run.  Cool.
I was asked to head up the research end of a task force to develop an entirely new leadership training curriculum for Pinnacle Entertainment this morning.  YES!  This company needs structured training so badly and I am just the girl to make some initial recommendations.  
I got a really sweet email from my friend Amy and it made me smile big.  Claire and I figured out how to use our webcams in the office and chatted that way from our offices because the phone just wasn’t enough for our overly expressive selves and that made me laugh big.  My cousin invited me to the opera in a few weeks and that made me…well, maybe that makes me cultured big??  My friends rule.
I got season 3 of Mad Men from Netflix today AND two Crate and Barrel catalogs.  Red letter mail day.
I live alone and don’t have to worry if not putting my laundry away offends anyone.
The songs “Show” by Lenka and the Glee covers of “One”, “Gives you hell”, and “Hello” are ruling my itunes right now.
Happy.