First – meet the players:
Now that you’re familiar, let me set the scene. It’s 10am. I am just finishing a meeting to discuss actual numbers of end users for project implementation (fyi – it’s twice what I thought) when the phone rings…
my boss: Hey Sarah. It’s me, your boss.
me: Hey boss.
my boss: I just got a phone call from Mr. Head of the top Change Mgmt research and methodology company. He asked if I knew anyone who might want to collaborate on a book chapter he’s writing for an OD textbook on change management. Is it okay if I give him your name?
me: Umm, heck freaking yeah. Please pass my name on to him.
my boss: Great. He’d like us to help write the case study and I think you’re the best partner. You should be getting an invite from him.
me: I got this.
I may have paraphrased some, but you get the idea, right?
My boss recommended me to this super important guy in the change management world (we all have our industry rock stars) to help test the model/framework he’s introducing in the chapter of an OD textbook that my OD Master’s program used! If this all works out, I cannot wait to send that email to some professors. “Oh, by the way, I’m listed as a collaborator in this text book now.” In addition, he wants to collaborate on the case study and use my current Nationwide program as the example. Now – this is all preliminary and maybe it goes nowhere. But in my inbox right this second is the abstract and outline for the method he’s writing. I’m supposed to review it. No problem, Mr. Head of the top Change Mgmt research and methodology company. No problem.
Did I not just write on this very blog last night how I want to start writing, want to pursue being published. Holy cow, Universe! You rule all! I made space and the space was filled. And in no small way.
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It’s been a while since I thought about the book that was so important to me for several years: Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. Today one of the passages from the book came back to me:
“But I love him.”
“So love him.”
“But I miss him.”
“So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it. You’re just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you’ll be really alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she’s really alone. But here’s what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with the doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go.”
It’s not so much the not letting go of the man part that struck me today, although certainly relevant right now, it was the if you clear out the space you’re using to obsess, you open a spot and the universe rushes in to fill it. I’m overwhelmed by this opportunity this morning. I’m reminded that I have the power to survive. On a change management webinar last week, someone introduced the topic of resiliency and how they were using this resiliency assessment when they hired new change practitioners. Because above all else, a change professional should be able to handle change. I’ve been thinking about it since I heard of the assessment and haven’t gotten my hands on it yet – but how resilient am I? I’ve spent two months being mostly numb and living in a hermitage that is my house. So plans changed, so some one didn’t love me as much as I loved them… look at all the other stuff that’s out there waiting for me.
And Universe – if you’re still listening as intently as you were last night – I’d like you to send a Ted Mosby my way…I’ll be here…contributing to a chapter in an OD textbook.